Knocks on my door, whispering conspiring conversations, everyone is following me, there is a mic in my car, they want me dead – Paranoia! This is my friends last five days from his perspective. Sober three years, but the demon is dragging him back to the dark dungeon.
Some tend to look at this stuff and act like they are so above it. The experts tell us that for many, addiction is a basic emotional need of coming to terms with self-worth and developing a strong sense of self. It does then beg the question – Is it possible that everyone is addicted to something? Do you just move from one addiction to the next? I think we are all in a battle.
The apostle Paul understood the frustration and terrible hold that our inherited sin has on all descendants of Adam and Eve.
“I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. …I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do–this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death?”–Romans 7:15-24
Face that fact – all have sinned and you still are. Salvation comes from the authority of God, to whom we must surrender. Pray daily, get accountable – you can’t do it alone.
Guard your heart. Romans 6:16 says if you don’t, you’ll become its slave.
Baggage MUST be dealt with. Then you need to let it go. HE helps you let it go. Freedom awaits. Enjoy this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9lUtS-qGBw